NaBloPoMo – Nov 21, 22, and the weekend

Day 21: Describe an outfit that makes you feel good. (It can be from any period of your life.) Double points if you post a picture of yourself in the outfit.

Oct 12, 2013 - the day I ran a Half Marathon

Oct 12, 2013 – the day I ran a Half Marathon

I’m not going to lie. I felt pretty badass in this outfit. Nike Dri cropped capri pants with an Under Armor Heat Gear t-shirt. Champion Socks and New Balance running shoes. I also look sort of thin in this picture and that’s a major plus.

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Day 23. How important are book covers in getting you to read a book?

Extremely important. I totally judge a book by it’s cover. If it looks fun and flirty, and like it might be an easy read, I’m going to try it out. I deal with some much serious BS at work and on a regular basis, I want to get lost in that chick-lit, “only in a fantasy world” book. I want to read the fiction that makes two people fall in love and live happily ever after. Sounds lame, I know. But I dig it.

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I was going to post a “30 Things I’m Thankful for in 2013” post but in all honesty, I don’t know that I’m thankful for 30 things that have been a part of my 2013. Granted, thinks at work are going smoothly, E and I have adjusted to living in Maine, and Beanie is thriving after some health issues but I’m ready to see 2013 become a part of my history and I’m ready to look forward to 2014.

I wouldn’t mind if 2014 brought some changes. I’ve already started making some changes.

*Those women in my life that perpetuate the Mommy Wars — Gone.

*Those family members and friends that just want drama — Gone.

*Schooling — back on the list and ready to knock out some credits and put a serious dent in that “Credits Needed” column.

Those are just a few.

I look forward to seeing what might come of this and here’s hoping I still remember to blog ūüėČ

NaBloPoMo – Nov 11th

Day 11: If you had to be trapped inside a movie for 5 days, which movie would you pick?

My all-time favorite book was made into a movie. A book called Jewels by Danielle Steel. Before you roll your eyes, yes. It is one of her typical mushy love novels. But I feel like it most feeds my life.

The scenes start with a marriage, doomed from the start. Her dad swoops in and saves her. But here’s where it differs and here’s why I would want to be in that movie.

The main character ends up on a trans-atlantic cruise from New York to England. Once there, she meets this Duke. They fall in love and they live happily ever after, having several children and a wonderful life. However, they are not without their challenges. WW1 is looming. She has a home birth with their first child, which almost kills her. They have a second child, the child passes away. He is taken prisoner of war but finally makes it home, losing use of his legs. They go on to have 3 more children.

While the war is happening, many folks bring their jewelry to her, in exchange for money. She eventually goes into business, creating this jewelry empire.

Overall, her children and her husband are her greatest pleasure. I understand that. For me, my husband and my child are my world and I would do anything for them.

But marrying a Duke doesn’t sound too shabby either ūüėČ

Big Girl by Danielle Steel

I finished the book I started a while ago. I couldn’t find the time to actually sit down and pay attention between Beanie, E, work, and studying for my class and tests for work. But I finally finished it.

I was infuriated by the very end.

I can’t say I relate with any part of this book other than having the classic “second child syndrome” and feeling like my sister was the favorite. There might be some truth to this seeing as I was an absolute hellion growing up. But in this case, it was the first born that was treated like shit because she was different. No, not because she was different, because she was fat. Plain and simple, because she was chunkier than the rest of her family, she had to endure teasing from her father, being ignored by her mother, having her sister become a model and marry an asshole just like her father, and, at her sister’s wedding in the end of the book, her mother says to her “don’t worry about catching the bouquet, you won’t be needing it”. This girl spent most of the book on some diet or going to the gym, stressing and obsessing about her next visit home because she knew her father would find fault with her appearance. No amount of weight loss was noticed. Instead the focus would be shifted. Nothing was ever good enough. Finally she found someone who loved her for her, for who she was and what she looked like. Someone who saw through the appearance to her soul and fell in love with her. Of course, her parents absolutely couldn’t believe that he could love someone of her size. This poor girl had no love for herself and she was just looking for love. She just wanted to be accepted for what and who she is.

Are you kidding me?

I know this is fiction. I get that it’s fake but what the hell kind of book is this? Danielle Steel is one of my most favorite writers. I fell in love with her for her romance novels because the characters in her book love so hard, it’s easy to get lost in the “smut” and it flows. Jewels is my all-time most favorite book. I have both the paper copy and e-copy and I still read it once or twice a year.

But this book? Why, Danielle? Why?

When I found out I was having a daughter, I was absolutely terrified. Growing up, I was always this skinny, nobby-kneed child that could eat anything she wanted and stay thin and tan. Then I legitimately prayed for boobs and an ass and, POOF! 10th grade hit and I got both. With vengeance. Then came the body image issues. Worrying if my boyfriend thought I was too fat. Wondering if he only wanted to be with me because I had big boobs. Worrying that the size 10 in my jeans would make people make fun of me.

These issues continued and when I left for Basic Training, I was thrilled to lose 23 lbs. I was toned and in shape. But then came the horrid shipboard food and I stopped working out and I gained weight back. A lot of weight. Then came the struggle of losing and gaining. My weight was used against me at one unit and I was put on the weight program. I fought my ass off (no pun intended) and I got down to the weight the CG thought I should be.

Then I got pregnant.

I said, Fuck it, I’m doing what I need to to grow a healthy baby. I gained 40 lbs and now I’m fighting to get the weight off.

A friend of mine presented me with this article

I work so hard, every single day, to tell my daughter how beautiful she is. To tell her that she is an amazing person and she can achieve anything she wants to. It kills me to know that she might, one day, ever question herself and think that she isn’t good enough. This is one thing dads often don’t understand. I was talking to E the other night and we were discussing this very topic. He said “we’ll just have to tell her and teach her”. I told him “think of the girls you’ve slept with. Why did you sleep with them?”

Now, this is a topic we’ve discussed before, we’re married. We know pretty much everything there is to know about one another so I was comfortable asking this question.

His reply “because I wanted to have sex” and then I asked “and why did they sleep with you?”

He didn’t quite understand that they quite possibly slept with him because they wanted to be loved.

High school aged girls, these days, often think they need to be sexual to be loved and accepted. The “sexting”, sending nude pics of themselves to boys, engaging in acts that they definitely shouldn’t be engaging in. They just want to be loved and they think this is the way to do it.

I will work my ass off to see that my daughter isn’t one of those girls.

I want my daughter to know that not only is she special to E and I, but that she deserves the world and if someone isn’t willing to give that to her without strings attached, then they aren’t good enough for her. I pray that I don’t pass my body image issues down to her and make her because conscious of how hard I work to keep the weight off. Obviously I won’t allow her to become a couch potato and eat cheetos all day long but I hope, when the time comes, I can find a happy medium and help her along the way so that she knows she is loved and she can love herself.

48 Questions

I stole this from Meagan… Happy February!

1. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE? the character “Lara” from Doctor Zhivago. I’m an Irish girl with Native American skin and a Russian name.

2. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED? Monday when the doc shoved the sinus swab up into my face and into my brain. Holy Sweet Tap Dancing Jesus, that hurt!

3. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING? not usually. Sometimes it’s really neat and I’m a¬†“righty” so I have no excuse except I get writers cramp¬†wicked easy so I’m lazy with my penmanship. ¬†

4. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT? Bologna!  

5. DO YOU HAVE KIDS? 1 daughter, Beanie, 1 co-dependent Rott, Lenny, and 2 fish, Frankie and Freddy.

6. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU? I’m not sure. I’m pretty bitchy and sarcastic all the time so I’d probably be put off by me when I first met me

7. DO YOU USE SARCASM A LOT?¬† see answer #6. I’m fluent.

8. DO YOU STILL HAVE YOUR TONSILS?  I do.

9. WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP?¬† It’s on my bucket list

10. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE CEREAL? Cocoa Peebles. I lived on that stuff while I was pregnant with Beanie

11. DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF? These days I’m either in my work boots or my work out/running shoes. My work boots have zippers on the side, so no, no need to untie them. My running shoes, I slide them on and off without untying because I’m lazy

12. DO YOU THINK YOU ARE STRONG?¬† Physically, I’m working on it. Emotionally, I have to be.

13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM? Ben and Jerry’s Half Baked

14. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE?  The way they carry themselves. Are they standing upright and tall or slouched over?

15. RED OR PINK?  Pink.

16. WHAT IS THE LEAST FAVORITE THING ABOUT YOURSELF?¬† my negativity. I’m working on it. It’s one of my “things” for 2013

17. WHO DO YOU MISS THE MOST? Right at this moment, my MD peeps and my Poppy, who passed away in Nov of 2012.

18. WHAT IS THE TECHNIQUE THAT YOU NEED TO WORK ON THE MOST?¬†Sticking to the Plan. I’m an awesome budgeter. I can budget to the moon and back but I’m hell with sticking to the budget. That’s also another one of my “things” for 2013

19. WHAT COLOR SHOES ARE YOU WEARING?  black combat boots

20. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE?  Hash Brown Patty

21. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW? “Glad You Came” by The Wanted (? – it’s on Pandora)

22. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE? Blue

23. FAVORITE SMELLS? Pumpkin anything / Food smells. I love having my house smell like I just got done baking for the holidays

24. HOW IMPORTANT ARE YOUR POLITICAL VIEWS TO YOU? Eh. I have my opinions but due to my job, I usually keep my mouth shut but what opinions I do have are strong enough for my to defend but not enough for me to look down on those who do not share them.

25. MOUNTAIN HIDEAWAY OR BEACH HOUSE? Beach House, for sure.

26. FAVORITE SPORTS TO WATCH? Football – GO RAVENS!

27. HAIR COLOR?  Dirty Blond with piss poor highlights due to lack of treatment

28. EYE COLOR?  Hazel/Green with a blue rim

29. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS?¬† nope. Up until now I had 20/15 vision but it’s gone to 20/20

30. FAVORITE FOOD? Fried stuff with cheese, please!!

31. SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDINGS? Happy Endings. I’m paranoid and jumpy enough

32. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED? Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close. It was uncomfortable for me but I wanted to see it.

33. WHAT COLOR SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING? Blue T-Shirt under a Blue ODU Jacket

34. SUMMER OR WINTER?  Summer with no humidity

35. FAVORITE DESSERT? Brownie Sundae with no nuts

36. STRENGTH TRAINING OR CARDIO?¬† Cardio is my preference but I’ll throw in some crossfit/insanity-esque exercises

37. COMPUTER OR TELEVISION? Television

38. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING NOW?¬† “Big Girl” by Danielle Steel. This is an infuriating book but I need to know if there is a happy ending to it all.

39. WHAT IS ON YOUR MOUSE PAD? Grayish silver with a wrist support. Boring.

40. FAVORITE SOUND?  Christmas Symphony Orchestra with a focus on Woodwinds and Brass

41. FAVORITE GENRE OF MUSIC?¬† Pop and Country. I pretend I’m a rockstar from time to time

42. WHAT IS THE FARTHEST YOU HAVE BEEN FROM HOME?¬†It’s a toss up between Honolulu, HI and Manta, Ecuador. I’ve been lucky enough to travel all over the Caribbean and through the Panama Canal. Hawaii was different a fun place to visit. The landscape of Haiti was the prettiest, along with the north end of Aruba (away from the tourist section). I look forward to venturing out to the European section.

43. DO YOU HAVE A SPECIAL TALENT? I can fit my fist in my mouth

44. WHERE WERE YOU BORN? Baltimore City, MD

45. WHERE ARE YOU LIVING NOW?  Thomaston, ME

46. WHAT COLOR IS YOUR HOUSE?  Blue

47. WHAT COLOR IS YOUR CAR?  Charcoal Gray with a nice road dust and salt overlay

48. DO YOU LIKE ANSWERING 48 QUESTIONS? Yes, I am a sucker for surveys!

Reading

POTD Day #9 – Something you are Reading

POTD Reading

I’m a sucker for series. I get sucked into them because every time I finish a book, I want to know what happens next. I even read that godawful 50 Shades of Grey triology because I needed to know what happens next. My ma told me about this series (The Bride Quartet by Nora Roberts) and I do love a good Nora Roberts novel. I’m not very far into this book yet. Once class finishes, I’ll have a smidge more time to get lost in the book.

Up Next:

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I adore Stuart Woods and his writing. I was introduced to this series (The Stone Barrington Series) back in 2002 and now, 25 books later, he constantly leaves me wanting to know more.

I know what you’re thinking. I read shit. You’re right. I deal with too much nonsense at my job on a regular basis, I need something that is removed from reality. I sometimes will read “real” books but that stresses me out. I’m a sucker for chick lit too.

I’m on goodreads and I keep track of what I’m reading. It’s just another gadget. I’d like to set a goal of reading XX amount of books in 2013 since my POTD challenge is only through the end of Jan but I’m starting another class though so I’m not thinking that will be in the cards :/

What are you reading?

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